What is emptiness?
Feeling empty is what seems to be the worst feeling. Sometimes we dont know why its there, whats causing it, but we feel it. Emptiness is confusing, you try once and once again to know and try to understand it, but you cant. I guess we can say its a hole (it describes it perfectly) that needs to be filled, but its definetly not like a stomach that just accepts whatever, it TRIES to accept whatever, but at the end you still feel it. To me its a lock with one key, that you try over time to open with a set of keys that are just too big or too small, you try to fill it in with what you think its missing, but you cant. Emptiness is like feeling that noone, absolutly noone is there. Do you ever go home and noones there? your soo used to all the noise of your family, but its just silence, i guess thats loneliness, so emptiness and loneliness are very much alike. One can say they might even be the same, but lonesliness passes,people eventually come home and the noise is back, but does emptiness? Are we always carrying this and just learn to eventually forget about it since we are so wrapped up into our worlds?
Sometimes we dont face the problem, we make that quick turn back and just avoid it. I think we are scared of going deeper into emptiness. I hate feeling sad, its horrible, and i could say for myself that if i were to look really deep into what this empty feeling is i would be terrified about what i could find out or really saw. Its like we close the curtains to the sun beaming in on our windows. What will realizing what this emptiness truly is lead us to? Will we be able to fix it and never feel it again, i dont know, but i do think this empty feeling will always be there, wheter is be for the smallest thing or the biggest, we cant escape it.
When thinking about this empty "hole" i dont know i described it as a lock with one key but Im not sure if what can fill it is one specific thing, i don't think its many holes that must be filled for different aspects of our lives, it might be one that has its specific fit, like a puzzle, but then it might not be.
It gets tricky, what if someone grew up with no dad or mom, they live their lives knowing that that hole is there due to the lack of a parent , are they right though? or is there more to it? if their right , how come someone who has everything they need to be happy, feel that emptiness as well? Like i said , everyone probably has this empty feeling, realize it or not, but while writing this Im realizing that there is much more to it that i dont know about.
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